YO. *cue awkward laugh* I haven’t posted much since a little before school ended. Sorry. Honestly, I’ve been in a bit of a rut the last few weeks since school let out. I couldn’t bring myself to talk much about it and especially not to post about it.
I don’t know if any of my fellow classmates have felt the same since coming home at first (Maybe it’s just a life/adult thing — idk). My poor family has had to deal with me moping around the house for a few weeks — truthfully I don’t even know what had me so down. I mean, moving on to the next stage of your life shouldn’t be such a weird transition right?
The world may never know….
Forgive me, I tend to exaggerate. A lot.
This past weekend has jump started me again. Well okay, maybe not. A lot of little things have been weighing on my heart to teeter it on the side of living and not just existing – something most of us struggle with I think. I can’t say I’ve got it down, but I’m getting better at it. One of the things I’ve been trying to grow in is living in the now. I’m a dreamer/visionary by nature — which in and of itself isn’t bad, but it is more of a challenge for me personally to live in the moment, especially in the mundane of normalcy…ugh. Not complaining though — there’s a reason I’m learning this — though many times I really don’t want to.
There are many things this year that I told God I didn’t want to do or learn that I still don’t see how it was even important. It’s important to Him though. I’m learning that when you love those around you that even if you don’t love something or see it as important, if you truly value your relationships, you’ll try to see how they love it and why. I more often than not don’t get it but I’m willing (sometimes) to open and expand my world and views little by little for the sake of those closest to me.
Gosh. I hope this doesn’t make me sound like a jerk (sorry those closest to me!). Just a little of my current processes is all.
This is going to be an interesting year, I can feel it. More importantly, today is going to be an interesting day.